It’s been almost a week since our return from Savannah, and while Erin has been good about posting, you may have noticed that I’ve maintained a bit of radio silence. This is why it’s good to have a partner-in-podcasting and blogging.
It has also been just over a week since I turned the page on the big 4-0, and I find myself reflecting on my new age. Some have asked how I feel, and the fact is, I’m good with 40.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m am not happy about this whole “aging” thing. I still look at photos of older people and find a small part of myself denying that I am, in fact, aging and will some day be elderly. Mind over biology can work, right?
Okay, maybe not.
But if you are going to hit a major milestone may I suggest you do it surrounded by over 150 amazing women who remind you through their words and their examples how fabulous 40 can be? And how much more I have to look forward to?
It also doesn’t hurt a newly 40-year old ego to be showered in love and affection by those same women who left their families and jobs and came to Savannah to see me and Erin.
Upon reflection, there is actually a lot to like about 40.
I have my family, and love every moment I spend with my children, my husband, my parents and my brother. I also am blessed to have an amazing extended family of aunts, uncles, cousins, in-laws and even a pair of grandparents whom I don’t see as often as I’d like, but look forward to hosting at Christmas.
We are fortunate to have found our way into a great town and a supportive network of friends and neighbors. I have learned that great friendships are a gift that in my “foolish youth” I took for granted, and learned the consequences of my thoughtlessness. I have also discovered that it’s okay to accept when a friendship has run it’s course, and rather than feel bitter or angry it’s better to look back on those times with fondness.
Professionally it has already been a big year as I’ve take over the the role of co-owner and president of my agency. But I’ve stepped into some very large shoes, and I know it will take me years of challenges, missteps, successes, growth and learning to make the position feel like my own. Thankfully, in my father I have both an amazing role model (as he is the one who wore the shoes first), adviser, supporter and friend.
It probably goes without saying that I’m in the best shape of my life, but the real discovery has been how much I’m enjoying the physical challenges of running and triathlons.
At 40, I’m more confident and comfortable with the person I am – but I have plenty of room for growth. I’ve learned it’s important to challenge myself because I’ve finally learned that fear can lead to success. Maybe that’s why I finally got over the stage fright that throttled my voice through high school and college and have learned to allow myself to shine.
I’m still making mistakes, and will probably never lose my skill for putting my foot in my mouth. But I’m also better at putting my mistakes into perspective. I’m learning how to say yes to opportunities, but am just figuring out how to say no, to slow down, and to do “nothing.”
So I’m okay with 40. In fact, I might even say I’m great with 40. And I want to thank all of you for making 40 spectacular.
The ladies, led by Otie, serenade me on my birthday.
Video by Kerry Gorgone